Why do we even think WE have the choice?

Life as I know it is completely changing. The comfort zone of knowing my life's plan is fading away more and more each day. This is when the reliance on the One who will ALWAYS prove himself faithful comes in. There has to be that peace inside knowing that whatever path you take, trying to follow His exact plan for your life, whether you go to the left or the right, He will always be there guiding you. I don't know if everyone has this feeling of greater things inside them, but I do know I cannot settle for anything less. I do know I have a heart for the broken;a heart for the hurting. I can't just settle for a typical job helping to bring the level of comfort necessary in feeding the satisfaction of Western culture's security in a house, safe neighborhood, nice transportation, and a family with 2 kids and a dog. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with that by any means. We as a nation need people who will be Jesus in the work place; who will be the light to those who desperately need Him. I just can't see myself doing anything else but talking about Him all day; worshipping Him all day; and walking miles to the un- reached; living not just among the poor, but with the poor. I want to see thousands saved, lives changed, the dead raised, and emotional healing.

Any desire I had for material possession is gone. The process in getting there was scary, and even hurt a little. But the end result is beautiful. If you want something I own, take it. If you like my dress,you can have it. For real, come go through my room. Every day I feel God guiding me. He does not just want an hour when all our friends are busy and we have nothing else to do. He wants our day. He wants our week. He wants our life. Even though I love living in Auburn with my best friends, I HAVE to do what I feel I am being lead toward. The mystery of God teaches us faith. Faith to believe what He has for me is greater than anything I think I would rather be doing, or anywhere I think I'd rather be living. Faith to know He WILL provide; everything WILL work out; and He has the perfect way of doing it. Friendships may die, people will get upset and most likely talk, and a lot of opposition will come, but there is a man named Jesus who has been there waiting for me every time I messed up and every time I broke His heart. And, He is the one I have to live for. He is the one I have to answer to; the one I have to surrender my whole being to. In the end "Greater is he"... So, what makes me think for even one second I have the choice in deciding my life and the path I take.